SAN JOSÉ, COSTA RICA
If you know me at all you know that I’m generally a very happy, upbeat, and positive person. However, just like anyone else, some days are tougher than others when it comes to keeping a smile on my face. I’m not naive enough to think that every day can be all rainbows and butterflies.
Even though I’ve been having such a wonderful experience here in Costa Rica, yesterday was one of those days where my smile did not come as easily. I would be lying if I said that at this very moment I wasn’t feeling some very strong homesickness. It was around this same time last year that I started hearing that same little voice in the back of my head; I should have known it would show up again.
It’s the second year in a row that I missing autumn in New England, one of my favorite things in the entire world. It’s also the second semester that I’m spending away from all of the people in the places that I love back home. Though I have met some incredible friends and have a loving host mom, there still a little piece of my heart that hurts a bit when I think of the distance between my love ones and me. I miss my parents, my sister, my boyfriend, and my close friends that are always there to put a smile on my face. In addition, one of my closest friends here had a week of bad experiences, including being robbed of all her belongings right outside my house. Needless to say, that makes me want a hug from my parents and to use my Tommy as my own personal bodyguard.
One thing about traveling as much as I have, is that do you have to get used to being out of your comfort zone. While this is usually something I take in stride, the past couple of days I have been longing for my home (or my home away from home at school) laughing and receiving a zillion hugs from the people I love most. I know that my experiences and adventures may often look like I just jet off to the next place without a care in the world, but I wanted to write this post to reflect on the fact that I don’t need to hide a run for my feelings.
It’s okay to be upset; it’s okay to feel sad and homesick and whatever else I’m feeling. Those emotions are all valid and NORMAL and they certainly don’t take away from all of the wonderful things I’ve been lucky enough to see and do. It’s okay to share the not so good in addition to the great. I guess the moral of the story is that I am not afraid of the emotions that I’m feeling. Instead, I’m embracing them. Hopefully everyone back home knows just how much I love them and wouldn’t mind sending a little extra love over here in Costa Rica so I can get back to feeling that Pura Vida.