I have always loved singing, even just for fun. I’m one of those people that is just always singing and I don’t care whether I’m good at it or not. Life is better with music!! Though I do occasionally write poetry, I rarely put anything to music and I wouldn’t call myself a songwriter by any means. However, I recently wrote what you could basically define as a love song- for my boyfriend, of course (I’m a sap)- and I’m honestly very proud of it. After showing my guitar teacher the song It’s You,he encouraged me to play it at the end of the year Student Showcase so I agreed.
Because I still get anxious (it was only my second time actually performing in front of people, give me a break) my teacher had me go first. It was cool because I got to introduce the evening to everyone. This was such an awesome setting- dark and intimate and definitely free from judgement. So, with my lyrics and chords in front of me so I wouldn’t panic and forget it all, I told the audience that I had written a song about finding what you didn’t know you were looking for and then I did it. I never thought I could say that I had performed a song that I wrote in front of an audience but I have to admit that it was one of the most incredible feelings to wear my heart on my sleeve and share something so personal.
I waited so long to write this post because I was really thinking about what the whole experience meant to me and I only just sang the song for Tommy, which I think was even more nerve-wracking than playing it in front of a bunch of my peers. The whole thing was something I never made a fuss about, but it was truly such a big deal and what felt like a milestone to me; the second time I ever performed in front of others was when I played my own song. I feel truly blessed to have been able to perform in front of a group of people who are so kind and respectful towards other musicians and the music they create. Did you see that? I said musician. This really was the first time I felt that I could consider myself a musician and I’m excited for what is to come! Next stop: playing without a cheat sheet in front of me!